Thursday, November 13, 2008

Because I opened my big mouth...

...I found my breaking point.


We were supposed to go to England, but we can't because my stepkids need special education. Base preference was my reward for serving my country and husband by raising my kids alone, sleeping alone, living alone. Now we're stuck with Oklahoma. We didn't even get a preference in the US. (We begged to go to either coast.) I don't want to go to Oklahoma. I cried for 10 hours today. I can't tell you how much I don't want to go. I thought I could endure anything because I love David. That was before I realized "anything" can include Oklahoma.
I need to stop writing about it or I'm going to start sobbing again. I spent the day contemplating divorce with the phone in my lap and a pile of tissues around me.



I have been working on Isabel's present. I'm about 90% done. She needs a more expressive face. David suggested that I knit a Liger (pretty much his favorite animal) as a ballet classmate for it. I used bamboo fiber fill because I hate polyfil. (Why give stuffed animals cellulite-like lumps on their bums?)



I'll knit the Liger, 2 tutus, 2 leotards, and one more dress. Then I'm done with Christmas knitting. I'm shopping online. I'd rather get a pap smear that deal with the holidays this year. Ugh.

9 comments:

CraftyGryphon said...

*hug*

ChickenBetty said...

double on the hugs
I lived through 3 years in Georgia.
the liger is a riot!

Marissa said...

*hug*

I'm sorry sweetie. If life is going smoothly, it's almost promised to kick us in the ass.

Indigo Blue said...

Hi,
Lovely knitting, I can't knit anything like this. Sorry to hear that your posting to England fell through! It is very disappointing, how long is it for?

Lovs2Knit said...

(((Hugs)))

Your liger is cute! I hate shopping after Thanksgiving. Most of my holiday shopping is done. The rest will done online because frankly I don't need to deal with the rude locals anymore.

Veronica said...

Sorry to hear about Oklahoma- I'm thinking good thoughts for you.

Andrea said...

*hugs*

melissa said...

i'm so sorry about the way things are going. let's assume things can only get better from here.
take care :)

Mariss said...

I came to say thanks for the b'day wishes on my blog--then saw your gorgeous cable sweater, and then this sad post :(

I'm so sorry that you have to move somewhere you don't want to, after all you and your family have been through. My thoughts go out to you and your family that things work out.